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Tuesday, January 8, 2008 ♥10:24 PM

life is indeed a joke and i guess heaven is playing a trick on me..

there's a strong feeling deep within me that i cant explained.
things didnt turn out good today, or rather for the next few days..
its quite unusual of him today from the way we communicate. perhaps he's restless or mood-less.
there are many many many thoughts that i wanted to express to him but i cant.
how does it feels when your phone rings and u hope that the person who text or call you is him..
how does it feels when you're given a lil hope and the person crashes it..
how does it feels when every single silly things he said that can really makes me smile..
he's the one that can made my day or made me fall..
how does it feels when he's always the one that's on my mind when im going to bed..
how doest it feels when you're awake halfway on your sleep and check your phone whether did he text me..
how does it feels when i'm waiting for your message stupidly..knowing that you wont even bother..
how does it feels when every single thing i do reminds me of you..
there are many times i feel like disappearing in your life, many times i feel like crying myself to sleep..
i feel like being alone.. don't feel like doing anything, don't feel like talking..
somehow, im quite affected..
i feel like escaping from everything.. running away from you..

why i still love when i know loving you is so hard?
it hurt so much to sacrifice what i gave up...
i've fallen all over heels..
i don't wanna feel the way i do..